Monday, August 31, 2009

.what goes 'round comes 'round.

I take myself, as still learning to know how to take care of my heart. And now that i witnessed something that i predicted some while ago, i believe i achieved some desirable point in that. The first time it happened, i knew it gonna change me for good. I even made a statement to the former subject that that, has leave some sorta 'cicatrix' in me and before it's bygoned as a mere memory, i make sure i thanked properly, for making me learn and move forward. This time it might not be entirely the same, yet as i've learnt and took action, i triumphed (err..that's sorta exaggerated term) ;P.

What goes 'round comes 'round.

wgrcr

And oh, Happy Merdeka Day! There's more to it than just a holiday. :)(But as for me, tennis time tomorrow mownin.) ;P

It’s like,

when you’re excited about a girl, and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And at other times, you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. And all you always want, is to feel happy for them because you know, that if you do, then it means that you are happy, too.

Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

.it's the climb,baby.

1st week of repro. Baru 1st week, and i'm mashed. Juggling between recent notes, prev semester's, elective-group-funds stuffs, studygroup, and japanese classes..htd stuffs.. no wonder i'm no VIP. If i put myself in any of the hicom's shoes, lagi2 the ones with multiposts, i don't think i can handle it well. *sigh*

*Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high


Has been a while since i last step into the tennis court. Missing it much. Feel a slight guilt towards Abg. Mie n the seniors generous with their tennis skills before. Not playing means not practicing, means i might have forgot the techniques they have spent time teaching me before. Means it's gonna be quite long while for me to get better at the game, and might put everyones' previous effort to waste. Although it's the real deal, me having japanese classes in the evening, and when we're supposedly free of the class, something else equally important came up, i still feel embarassed explaining it to Sahrul last nite, coz i think i look like giving endless excuses for not turning up to practice. My fault maybe, not organizing well of my time. Apelah~


*There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,


I miss the debate club too. The late-nite discussions, mind-probing tongue-lashing sessions, debate matches with other uni.. I was supposed to be in a match in Dungun on 25th June, but i've mistaken the date with 25th of July (as on the actual date we're still in our sem-break so i thought..), i was cancelled, or more to 'cancelled myself' from the debating team for the match. Bodo betul. Salah tarikh pulak, dah terlepas.
When they (debate team) were having meeting pulak, i wasn't informed coz i accidentally left my hp at home. Bodo jugak sikit coz asyik lupa barang2 sendiri. Ggaaaa~!!


*I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong.


And now it seems like things arent exactly in their place yet.
My mind is sometimes blank, sometimes like this: ->

tangletangle
I sometimes don't know what am i thinking about at times. Airheaded. In the pbl, i explained the mestrual cycle graphs like crap. Tu lah ingat dah hafal, tp tertido pula semasa revision. 14th day=menstruation. What the~ lah.. Budak yang belum SPM pun tau kot..


*The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking


...&*^&&%%*...
.......(T.T).........

Hey hey wake up! Asyek merungut aje. Miserable people make other people miserable tawu!! All's gonna be for the better! When are you gonna learn that haa?
Don't worry Iliana, you'll be fine. Keep moving forward.

So sing it,
LOUD!!!!

MILEY CYRUS - the CLIMB.
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong.

P6202065

You are soooo not the worst case, budak.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

.Diamonds in a Cloudy Sky.

Good day. :)

It's 5.21am, and i'm still surfing. Huhu it seems like that's all i have to do this week (since i havent come to sense of the importance to GET DOWN WITH ZA BOOKZ!! yet)

I was thinking of posting on how my day was, but as it can be cleared in one sentence -online, breakfast, needlework-attempts, lunch, dinner, online- (there) , i suppose i might as well share about something else today.

So i wonder,

What else happen on my 21st anniversary? (yeah, still the issue. but hey, aha aha, MY blog. :P)

Since Didi Aiman is so fond of astronomy, i adopted the idea to search in that field. And i found out this:

Diamonds in a Cloudy Sky on 08/08/2009
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Cloudy skies over Wuhan, China hid the delicate solar corona during July's total eclipse of the Sun. Still, the Moon's silhouette was highlighted by these glistening diamonds as the total eclipse phase ended. Caused by bright sunlight streaming through dips and valleys in the irregular terrain along the Moon's edge, the effect is known as Baily's Beads, named after Francis Baily who called attention to the phenomenon in 1836. The dramatic appearance of the beads at the beginning or end of a total solar eclipse is also known as the Diamond Ring effect. In this remarkable image, a small, pinkish solar prominence can also be seen along the edge, below the diamonds.

This is from the APoD
Here they have everyday picture of astronomy going-ons! From The Milky Way, to the Space Station on Moon, inside the Nebula, even the Martian Sunset! They're amazing. This one's definitely going into my IE 'favourite' folder.

Monday, August 10, 2009

.marimari.

Halloo there!
My 2nd post in August. :P

August, the month of lotsa-going-ons. There're majority of peeps buffdays (not-featured in royal ramble coz too many. huhu), convo break, school holidays, independence day and whatnot days, 8th of August being the most (or most not) special - which is the day i became 21!

Haha nothing special, no celebration, i just rest for the whole day since that's the quality time to laze around in the house after its completion (my house's been under renovation for almost 2 years (seems like decades).

At home? Yeah.., i suppose that's not a weird thing anymore for a uni student nowadays, considering the current situation. Yes, the H1N1 flu (pronounced as selsema 'hini' by the Wans family) outbreak.

USM Health Campus had the first positive confirmation on the 6th, thus stopped the students' activity for the week. Our CFCS activities were also cancelled, causing me the (not really) ultimate emotional and mental agression, considering all the group member's hardwork and difficult situation undergone for that particular programme. Last2 tak jadi pulaaaaa..sob2. However, for the sake of the community's well-being, and we don't want to jeopardize any lives including our own, so have to back out jugak lah.

So here i am, enjoying my 3 weeks (1 week for H1N1 + 2 weeks convo break) holidaaaay!

So..lazying around the house, what did i do?
Hehe..apparently, 8th of August isn't only the birthdate of me~ but also chosen to be the birthdate of Cinderella Collection, my mom's first online boutique! Hehe so the laze-around session were actually filled with the boutique construction work. Saket tangan suda..snapping photos and uploading them with the kura-kura like so-called broadband into the online shop. But eventually the boutique came out fine (tersenyum).

Our home-based boutique actually have a wide variety for both gender, yet for starters, we emphasize only female clothings in the online shop. So, ladies, welcome to a new shopping experience!

mari mari! ;)

Thursday, August 6, 2009

.cheap things in free time.

Cheap things I do in my free hours. They’re very costly though, for my future profession well-being.

1. I sleep. A lot.
2. I drink coffee, and stare out the window. Airheaded.
3. I scribble/write/doodle nonsenses.
4. I clean my room, rearrange my stuffs repeatedly in one session. Organidler (organizing, yet idling).
5. I go to a mall, tailor in bookstores, browse through books. (this one not really cheap, I have to pay for tren, topup car’s gas -if it's KB mall- and sometimes end up buying good titles)
6. I say a word out loud, and try to think of the early days of its invention.
7. I read blogs.
8. I google lovely photos/graphics and save them in lappy.
9. I look for random international addresses and send a Hi! postcard, without my address on. (haven’t done this for a long time. last was in matriculation college)
10. I shop for windows, online.
11. I go for a walk.
12. I look around in bazaar, trying to decide my emotion towards beggars and the alternatives they could/should be.
13. I stare at my notes/textbooks.
14. I print something out.

Btw, I don’t count reading newspaper as cheap things to do in free time.

i will do 1 thing today

What do you do in your free time?