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Cinta Sempurna by Yuna.

Aku manusia lemah

Selalu terjatuh

Berbeda aku darimu

Kau berdiri teguh.

Aku serba tiada

Aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba

Aku hilang dari kewujudan.

Bukan aku tak pernah

Mengerti dirimu

Ku sanjung setiap kata cinta

Kau berikan aku.

Hilangkan rasa itu

Akhirkan semua

Dan bila kau sedar

Aku hilang dari kewujudan.

Sempurnanya sifatmu

Tulusnya hatimu

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu.

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu

Menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna

Darimu… darimu.

Was taking a break from studying (ehem2. see I made me sound so hardworking there? Haha I wish baba’s reading this. lol) when this song knocked wave on my tympanic membrane. So I payed more attention to the lyrics rather than the previous ones aired during study time, when I wasn’t singing along.

At first I hear it, I thought it has religious soul and meaning or something,

“Aku serba tiada

Aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba

Aku hilang dari kewujudan.

Sempurnanya sifatmu

Tulusnya hatimu

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu.”

Kan, kan? I mean, who’s perfect?

But then, there’s this

“Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu

Menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna

Darimu… darimu.”

Who wants to be AWAY from His love?

So I figured, it’s a ‘humane’ love song. Hehe..

I bet it’s the nature of every couple. You know, to feel that their partner is perfect. Nobody else is. The one. Thus love flows unconditionally (you think).

But there’s sayings that pointed out, ‘do not hate too much for you might love then, and do not love too deep for you may eventually hate’. Ever heard of that before? I think it was hadith or something, but I don’t dare to say so without further research, I might be blamed for putting up false hadith. Yikes!

Listening to the song, I think someone may have loved a little bit too deep, (i know, some of you might be thinking, "love too deep"? is that even possible?) that he may have ‘intimidated’ the partner who is still insecure about herself. Not everyone is at the same level of everything. Even in loving. It’s not “love me back”. It’s “let me love”, and you allow one to reciprocate at his/her own pace. And if you love, you have faith. In one, for he/she may too, and in God, for you know there’s the best for you even it’s not him/her.

Just now, “it’s nature for lovebirds to feel that their partner is perfect.” So what happens when one feels insecure about his/herself?

It’s not doubt about ‘the one’, it’s just that, one may not love ultimately when he/she is yet to love him/herself. When someone thinks like that, you know one started to feel the ‘receiving’ is too much than the ‘giving’. And one would rethink about him/herself. And when you are in a diverged point of life, you know that there’s one path, usually less traveled by, to turn to. I’m not trying to be a goody-two-shoes, saying that only God knows best. But hey, we all know He is.

Well that’s my opininon. From my little much knowings.

You are insecure Because

Your belief is not sustained

By the inner faith.

You are insecure

Because

Your faith is not sustained

By the unconditional surrender.

You are insecure

Because

Your surrender has not

Breathed the life of oneness supreme.

Excerpt from “Dance of Life Part 4” by Sri Chinmoy