USM ranked #1 in Top 50. Wow. I mean, wow.

Assalamualaikum and good day peeps. :)

Ok my MCQ exam is tomorrow but i can't help it that i've drank 2 cuppa coffee and gettin a lil hyper! So as the consequence i kinda browse through everything in my FB and tweet endlessly in my twitter. Ok itu hyperbola. Tak tahu nak post apa sangat pun kat twitter.

Anyway tadi exam clinical. Ok lah, dapat case osteosarcoma (that is, a malignant bone tumour commonly occur in boys). Dr. Amran pun baik tadi, walaupun tanya banyak, and banyak juga tak dapat jawab, tapi senyuman dia macam nak bagi lulus aje? *berharap*

Lepas exam singgah kat gerai si Pidot & si Roy. They all buat attachment kat hospital. Rajin bebenor. Kreatif tak kreatif they all ni, sambil attachment sambil cari rezeki jual dadih & jersi kat laluan utama hospital. So tadi beli 2 dadih mangga, cari satu tempat duduk kat hospital, makan dadih sejuk sambil tengok gelagat orang ramai lalu lalang. Banyak pengajaran dapat on moral behaviour in public places, tapi banyak jugak buat dosa, sebab kutuk fesyen orang ramai yang ntah apa-apa, dalam hati. *so nanti mungkin tak boleh macam tu lagi*

Selepas pulang dari hospital tadi, balik buka facebook terus nampak satu link yang LeeSing post di FB wall. Titled Ranking University di Malaysia, posted with the status "#1 ranking? Rery unbelivable!!!' LeeSing is my team mate in USM tennis. So it's only natural to think that he's talking about USM right? But he's right, it's unbelievable. Don't get me wrong, i'm 'patriotic' and all for my alma mater, but isn't UM kinda the 'Pak Long' of all the universities in Malaysia? Been ranked 180th in the world even. So i wonder how can a better ranked university internationally get ranked below USM which was ranked 300+ in the list. What i'm trying to say is, i don't know much about university rankings, what are the criterias? which play more role in it, undergrads or postgrads? and whatnots. Have been meaning to look more into it. But since exam esok, i'll let it pass first. (Man, I make such a big fuss about the exam aren't i? Perhaps it's because for now i don't have a much more significant aspect of my life rather than that.) It's so important to me. So yeah. Doakan ya? ;) Thank you lads.

You can look at the rankings here: http://beritasemasa.com/ranking-universiti

p/s: tapi universiti top-ranked pun, study kena kuat juga. kalau tak..same aje masuk mana-mana universiti pun. huu..(-.-")

.Ceritanya Sekarang.

Saya baca Utusan Malaysia & tengok TV3, orang kata saya ini buta, jadi pak turut.

Saya baca akhbar 'lain-lain', tengok Youtube, ada yang kata saya ini semangat penentang, percaya sangat propaganda. (WTeff?)

Do you guys have CCTV in my house or something? Same as how some people know that bil elektrik PM is RM30k? And then PM tak bayar bil pun elektrik tak kena potong? <---- ( i still wonder how this issue can come out in khutbah jumaat and make makcik kat sebelah mengucap panjang. kesianlah oii..janganlah fitnah. people respect you. and some believe you. atoinye..)

Kalau tak baca apa-apa, tak ada ilmu. Tak ada ilmu nanti tak boleh buat keputusan. Kalau jadi orang di atas pagar, terasa hina. Terasa amat kecil apabila masih di atas pagar. Bukannya mahu di sini lama-lama..cuma tak mahu terburu-buru terjun, takut terlompat dalam lecak kotor. Di sini dahulu, berfikir sedalamnya, daripada saya ke situ, kemudian oh, ke sana pula, tanpa ilmu apa-apa. Menjadi lalang. Lagi dibenci.

So sekarang, saya baca Apley's Concise Orthopaedics je. Nak kata apa lagi? Sila kata saya akan LULUS dengan cemerlang ya. InsyaAllah kalau ramai-ramai kata, jadi doa yang makbul. :D

p/s: With the other news alternatives nowadays, i also still read chedet. Not for the politics of it, but for the knowledge he's sharing, in the point of view of 22 years experience of ruling a great country. Because i believe this one man really read anything and everything. Unlike me, unfortunately. ;P

p/s/s: Tadi ada menonton satu video yang dikongsi oleh seorang senior di facebook. An old man saying something that i've heard for so many times yet often forget:

"Jangan kau tanya apa bakti negara kepada kau. Tanya apa bakti kau kepada negara."

Itu sahaja. Take care everybody! :)

.the wall.

Assalamualaikum and good day, peeps.

I was updating my facebook status with;

"The wall is building up higher and higher. If I don't start the climb now, it may be extra difficult for me to do so later. "

It then reminds me of how Dr. Zuryati (an excellent dentist from HUSM) motivated me when i was a little swamped with my Professional 2 exams.

She mentioned during her years as a dental sciences student in a foreign country, she once resided in an apartment opposite a construction site. In her window view, there was a man whose work is as hard labourer, cementing bricks to make the new building.

Everyday, she watched that man working in whatever condition the weather gave him, until the building is done. It was the same routine. Bricking walls, that man was, and he did it excellently although the weather was harsh on him. Never once that man was absent from his duty until the building was completed. So whenever she felt 'overwhelmed' with hardship, she'll always say,

"If that man can brick that wall, i can study until i meet my goal."

Now, that man is outside my window. ( in a non-hallucination kind of way. ;P )

Never give up, peeps. :)

Hello Saikai.

Assalamualaikum and good day peeps!

Hari ini pergi beronggeng dengan Adlina Awanis. Kurang arah tuju sikit sebab baru lepas habis posting medical. (huhee!!) Tak ada beli apa-apa pun. Sebab duit tak berapa nak ada. Dua-tiga menjak ni pun, seperti kata Syafiq Muhammad di FB nya, setelah draw duit di ATM, dah tak berani print resit. Tak ada mood nak tengok nilai yang akan tertera pada kertas nipis tu. Semoga Wan Iliana dapat bertahan sehingga habis semester ini, dengan apa jua cara sekali pun. Menjual air tin, barang-barang Amway, Avon, mahupun garage sale (Ada 2-3 helai baju yang dah tak pakai sangat, but still in a very good condition. Kalau ada yang berminat, sila datang jenguk-jenguk di bilik. Brand new clothings pun ada.) hehe..

dan,

Esok bermula lah psychiatry posting. So-called minor posting, coz its pass-fail depends on two postings, in this case psychiatry+neuromedical (if you pass either one, you are considered pass for both). Awesome isn't it? So can i goof around in this one? Pfft. Of course not. What a rethorical question. My medical posting itself wasn't that good. The medical MCQ was like, out-to-kill kind of Qs. When i opened the first page of the MCQ paper, i kind of drop dead, mentally. Opening the second page..third page, made me wonder, what was i studying for again? Did i really have all those sleepless nights just to stare blankly at the Qs like this? (At some irregular intervals during the exam i looked up and stared into space. Airheaded). I ended up 'colouring' my answer sheet semi-randomly. So yeah, the point is, i really can't afford to screw up in any more postings. I screwed up that much already.

Aduhai.

ah. these mood swings.

i've been thinking too much lately. yes, that must be it. been thinking too much.

about unimportant things. emotional things.

emotion needs care, but not excessively, or it shall become an obsession.

once it is, it may be hard to come out from.

thus i should be thinking about something more appropriate, like my upcoming exam, which need quality studying.

okay. let's.

.indigestion.

I was overcaffeinating myself, now i suffer.

Ongoing dyspepsia for 3 days already. (-.-")

.redefined.

My pre-exam life can be defined as: oVer-caFFeiNed. (@.@)"

P/s: Won the debate. (Yay!). The prize was: RM50 voucher for Popular bookstore (2xYay!) Kindersley here i come!

.note to self.

Assalamualaikum and good day to you. *i love it when i start with that coz when i'm wishing people well, it sorta tell myself i kinda am, too* :)

But that is just rethorically speaking coz actually, i am seriously boredddddd. Borrrrrrreedd. Booooorrrrrreeddd and please add morrreee Os and Rs and Es and Ds and 'and's to the spelling like it's not yet annoyying enough.

This study month is killllinggg me!! What? These notes aren't interesting enough to entertain? You tell me.

Figuring i would have no other significant aspect of my life rather than notes this study month (do i even have 'em BEFORE? i don't know), i thought i'd stay away from the blog for a while. But since this is duper madly life-consuming, i decided to put up a post, even if a nonsensical one.

so,

NOte-to-SeLf 4 pOsTExaM:

1. Work at Chek Sing.

2. Learn japanese seriously before fly in May.

3. Finish up the cross stitches.

4. Colour bedroom furnitures in WHITE.

5. Paint bathroom stripey purple or any other warna that makes sense.

6. Build rack for store room.

7. Make a rock-paper-scissors-lizard-Spock t-shirt.

8. Go along with sister Yati's plan lah.

I wonder which one will be ticked done? We'll see. I'll be updating the to-dos here after the exam. And for the time being, the list might still grow.

Take care! :)

.once in a blue moon.

Assalamualaikum and a very good day to all. :)

And yes, it is a very good day indeed. It's my favourite weather happening - with bits of rainy and sunshine-y. And green predominates the colours outside my window. So cosy and beautiful. I love to watch people walking / just hanging around in the rain with their umbrellas up too, illuminating rainbows apart from from the potential natural one. It has been like this since yesterday, the cold weather 'lullaby-ing' many of us who already were super-sleepy from new year's eve celebration, not allowing us to get up and gear up for the day ahead - which is duper-dangerous for this particular girl who's having professional exam in medicine in not 3 months! Arkk!!

Yeah ok i know, some of you might be saying, "So what are you doing here (+ facebooking)?!! Get out and hit the books already!!" - believe me, i've been saying the same thing to myself, and so, err...just a brief update?

Well okay, nothing much, just that on new years eve, while i planned to set back and read with cuppa mugga of coffee in my hand the whole midnight till morning, suzana texted me, inviting to watch the eclipse at the beach. And i thought, wow, eclipse on new year's eve! That's something! And so we went.

We've departed a bit late from the campus as we've to wait for Sue and Yana to get done with their aerobics training (they're on the campus aerobic team. yes, the all-time champ in inter-campus aerobics, aerobic team). So we kinda missed the fireworks part.

And for the first time in my life, (reminding you, i am actually a Kelantanese - no biggy) i now know the route to Pantai Cahaya Bulan! Muahahhaa.. Now when my friends visit, i can proudly say, "I can bring you to PCB, by car." muahahhaha... :P

Because we couldn't really see the eclipse (some say it's actually just a full moon, i don't know, confused by the tabloids too), we end up unwinding with the cool breeze and camwhoring instead! Here are some pictures of us:

[caption id="attachment_370" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="my finger pointing at the moon which we can't seem to adore much of its sight due to heavily clouded sky."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_374" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="The troops. From left: Ihie, Dibby, Suzanna, Ady, Yana."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_375" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="Contemplating the upcoming year. 2010, be a love and allow my dreams to come true."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_376" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="I was actually just posing 'shocked' when coincidentally there were firecrackings and shocked me for real. on the left: neurofibliary tangle as seen by suzanna. ;P"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_377" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="Love isn't in the air, it's on the beach! ;D"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_378" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="Grab some munchies and coconut shake before heading back."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_379" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="Me and Ady"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_380" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="Suzanna and Yana"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_381" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="Happy New Year! ;) "][/caption]

Dibby: I wanna get better pointer this year!

Me too! More or less, since my course doesn't go by pointer. :)

Have a great year ahead! :)

.i am the master of my fate.

Sure, there are qada n qadar. But God must have given you cognitive function for a reason, doesn't He? Work for it, sunshine. Don't ever give up. Miracle happens to the lucky ones. And only the ones who put effort are lucky.

.Invictus.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

.highschool stories.

When he look at you, and you look back,

"eh perasannya budak ni..mesti ingat aku tgh tengok dia."

When you say "hi." out of pure friend-making intention,

"poyo nye, layan je ah..."

When you stammer in front, due to pressure of being watched (and maybe afraid to being judged in front of so many people), if you ONCE looked at him,

"heheh..asal aku ada je dia cmni. cuak ngan aku arr tu" then put on a coy smile to his friends.

and even,

When you meet old buddies, (whom you thought time never flies when you meet again) and excitedly greeting them like, "hi! eyh, how are you?"

and they'd (or HE'D) be like,

"ahahaha asal minah ni overexcited ngat neh." *giggle2 with other male homosapiens*.

Among the situations / monologues you, in innocence, might've never thought to occur in reality if you didn't hear it yourself from your knew-too-well guy peeps. (or at least I didn't think so).

But the last one happened to me though. Seriously Zaki, kuajaq hang.

Poor us girls...if we cared about it. lol. :P Oh well..just a nostalgia of some secondary school issues.

and by the weh,

I have We have formed a new studygroup! - since i seem to have some difficulties in keeping up with the schedule of the previous studygroup, plus some mind-boggling personal issues (there's always that). Muahaha

Our studygroup now consist of:

Und ME! :)

After a few sessions with the newly-formed one, i am so far satisfied with the discussion sessions and hope can go far with these peeps. But hell, still got A LOT to cover for the upcoming exams! weep weeeeeepp~

But we still have one month right? ONE month...just ONE, month... And professional exam is in TWO months..TWO (2) months..and SUKAD (inter-campus tournament) is in the end of January..THIS COMING January...

No pressure.

So while i'm still figuring out Myasthaenia Gravis, i might gonna have butt kicked by the tennis coach and seniors.

Adoiii. :P

.just around the corner.

SPM is! I have just remembered it just now and made a 5-minutes card for Abang Chik.

Haha i know, i know, it's pathetic. But hey, it's a less-than-5-minutes work. Wha'd you expect? ;P And besides, if i have an elder sister, i think i'd be glad to receive even a pathetic-looking soft card from her for my exam motivation.

To those who's sitting for SPM,  i wish you all the best. And to those whose brothers or sisters are, let's pray for their success. And for those who are in no bussiness of this year's SPM league, please, out of pure charity, pray for my brother's tranquility in answering and may he get good results.

p/s: just send them the wishes. even if it's in the ugliest form of creativity you have forged. ;)

.they make silent sound in my head.

Assalamualaikum and good day. :)

I realized that my 2 previous posts are on the same day, yet with 2 contradicting emotion. One second i'm all melancholic, and the next i'm all jovial. So the confession;

Yes. I am, a nutcase in disguise (or is it obvious?).

And right now there're these internal monologues playing back to back in me, which i believe are eclectic throughout my contemporary life so far.

1. I am going to be a real doctor. With good clinical practice and adequate knowledge. (betul-betul ni, saya nak)


2. I am now far from what i once was, but not yet what i am going to be. So i gotta push it.


3. Me (A): I can't. Me (B) : Turn around and say, "watch me". (haha okay that sounds like multi-personality disorder.)


4. I am going to make it through all these if it kills me.


5. I am going to middle east, and have precious bit of the time of my M.D. life there, if it cost me a butt to get M16 bullet shot at.


6. I am going to have my little heaven-on-earth of wood and whites with little herbs garden, coming out of my own savings. (saya nak, saya nak sangat)


7. I want to study.

.the afternoon after.

Assalamualaikum & good day!

It is. Really.

Was raining non-stop this morning. So even now at 1409, it's still feel like the 0700 morning breeze. I like this kind of weather, on this kind of day. With little responsibilty, faaaaaaaaarr from exam.. far from any formal duty (well, kind of. i still have some secretarial work for the elective programme). Hmm, actually on ANY day, i'd love to have this kind of weather - the sun is shy instead of scorching hot and the wet grass' glorious green are not bedimmed by the dark cloud. You have the best of both damp and sunny. But rather unfavoured by the doby people i suppose. :P

It's the 3rd day of my exam-free days.

I'm still here at USM hostel though. Got a few tasks needed to be settled so i can go back home without paperworks chivying me.

Mama is here in Kelantan. She came back to our hometown for Maksu's kenduri. Majlis Menyambut Menantu (The 'daughter-in-law welcoming party'). I met mama at the ceremony. She asked when will i go back to Mc's house (grandma's). I said 31st, like i told her before. Because i still have a few things undone and will stay until my dental and medical checkup which will be tomorrow morning. She then reacted in an unwilling way. Adoi.. 'Ma, along oyak doh kae, 31..mama beli tiket ko along 1st june kae..?'

"Hmm..ok lah kalu lagu tu. Takpo lah" with a heavy face. (haha am i using the right lingo there? i dunno.)

Adoi.

"Along kelik 31 deh. Mama jange ngaju deh (jgn merajuk ya)."

It's not much actually. My work can be done in a day. But if i get straight home, it will hardly to be done in a week. So i choose to stay, THEN only get back and be merry. Hehehe..

Plus, i want to feel the lazybum-ness at the hostel. Without deadlines and notes pesting, can do your work in your own time at convenience and can relax all day. You even have the delivery for masakan panas. Pergh. Best.

And when i'm not typing formal letters and email-ing the personas related to them, i go blog-hopping. a thing i sure love to do. (^^,)

This time i'm hooked with cupcakes blogs and websites. They are super-cute!! Call me late, but i am going to make lotsa cuuuuutttee cupcakes in this holiday. I'm not a kitchen person, but for this, i'll try hard coz i reaaaally want them be the delicious dolce! As sweet as they look!





















i want! i want!(^^,)













pretty please.

with sugar & cherry on top?

pacman. perfect. credit goes here.

awwhh.. (^^)v

You know you want one.

Chumil kan? kan? kan? Wee~ can't wait.

So..sugar, butter, egg, flour, vanilla, bla bla bla.. = cute cupcakes! Anybody to give a hand? Jom2! ;)

.drop dead.

Yes. I had been.

In the exam hall. This morning. When the 1st Q was "count osmolality". And when there were those "what is the diagnosis"(s). And when the subQ were "give drug". In between those lines of statements and Qs, i was officially an '**s family' - the dumbass.

I'm sorry i can foresee my result. *dushdush diri sendiri*

.apa khabar agaknya.

Apa khabar agaknya di sini. Ows..lupa..sudah lama x update..jadi tak ada apa-apa.. ;P

Sorry..bangat..

It's not that i dont want to update, (if you've the update of my blog you might notice, there was one titled 'a nobody' that i posted, like, 2 weeks ago. However then i rethink and decided it's too personal and too deep into the cerebra of mine, thus the deletion from page) it's just that there wasnt much going on, and i was in pre-depression (self-diagnosed, so more like mengada-ngada punya paranoia of not doing well in everything), i figured if i post, they'll be like, just pure whinings and babblings and complains for every entries. (it was said that complains, babbles and such may reduce our productivity by 30%) haha

So i thought maybe i could just save u guys from the boring babbles of mine in your exam month, and save myself from being the outbreaker of the negative aura~ hehe.

To make it up, i'll TRY to be more of a constant blogger AFTER the selanjar 2 (like the final for 2nd year) exam. To dearies who's not in my kuliah, my course has just have our 1st paper today, (i) the OSCE (on spot clinical examination) which i can say...... nothing about. ;P There will be 3 more papers, (ii) the SEQ (short essay Q) (iii) the OSCE clinical (for physical examination) and the (iv) the MCQ (you know what). And all will end on 28th of May. Oh cepat-cepat lah..

And so..what had been in the prev 2 months? Nada.. Well, there were a few things, but i'm not that keen on recalling and telling, for the time being. Hehehehe.. I'll just share more AFTER exam yah? Thanks for reading fellas!

C ya soon! :)

Btw: he called a little more often now. I am a happy bunny. v(^^)v