The Last Semester Break

Assalamualaikum and good day y'all!
Alhamdulillah dah selamat balik ke kampus. Tenang je rasa hari ni. mungkin sebab tak ramai yg ada di hostel ni.  So i take this time to wash the clothes, spring-clean the room (kinda), and prepare the whatnots, ready to take on the second (and the last!) semester of my studies. Dalam masa free ni boleh la nak update blog sekejap.

Got a week off for chinese new year. And i think i spent em wisely. Met the people i wanted to meet & done the things i've longed to do. Cuma geng-geng TK saje yang tak sempat nak melepak sekali ari tu, since busy sangat jaga kedai. Cinau rindu katenye, tapi tak singgah ke kedai pun. *sad*

Tauke kedua

Anyway, had great time during the holiday. Balik rumah now, for me, means to take on the duty as the Cherry Boutique's manager, jadi pemangku Pn Rohani kejap. Sangatlah penat me tell ya. Melayan kerenah customer one by one. Adeh. But it's all worth it! I'm glad, dapat ringan kan beban mama walaupun sedikit je. Kami ada pekerja seorang je, Siti nama dia. Rajin budak ni, peramah jugak. Untunglah dapat pekerja yg boleh dipercayai macam ni. =)

Tauke ketiga

 Jaga kedai dengan budak-budak ni lah. The little monkeys. Or as i call them, brothers. Tauke ketiga tu tak jaga kedai sangat pun. More to makan tidur sahaja.










Kadang-kadang jaga kedai ni boring jugak kalau time tak ada customer. Nak study pun tak sesuai dgn condition kat kawasan kedai yg bising dgn lagu-lagu semua. So in the mean time, i tried to open up Cherry Boutique to the netizens. Thanks to this social media called Facebook! =D So i called up my best friend Atikah, when she came and visit i asked her to become our model for Cherry Boutique. Me, the stylist and photographer. Hehe padahal tak style sangat pun suruh Atikah pakai sendiri je tudung tu. ;P Here are the result:

Hehe cun sangat model ni sampaikan ada yg like page tu semata-mata nak berkenalan dengan model. Siap tinggal nombor telefon kat ruang komen lagi. kihkihkih. ;P Thanks for helping out, love.

After the so-called photoshoot, of course we camwhored a little!

Yang tengah tu adik Atikah, comel macam kakak baju kuning tu. Eh. Haha

Ok satu gambar je. Nama pun camwhore, yang lain simpan dalam phone kitorang je cukup. 

Yeah so it happens, the Cherry Boutique, now available on Facebook! Jemput like ya.Thanks lads. =D

And oh! Another duper awesome thing is that i finally had the chance to join the tweeps for a charity event in HKL. You see, in twitter, there's this group caled the CP (Caring People), me myself not so sure it's an official NGO or what, but one things for certain is the peeps there, they're good people, doing good deeds, insyaAllah. So for those who have a twitter account and interested to join the volunteering activity, read about CP in here: CelakaParty.

What we do in HKL that day, for Toys4Kidz event (you can find the hashtag on twitter), is to visit and give out toys to the kids. It's a way to show remembrance to those who's staying in the hospital, short-term, or long-term & also to appreciatete kids' patience and strength, bearing with and fighting the sickness. It ain't easy, being 10 and having cancer. Or being 1 year old, and having to go through major surgery! Hope that our presence, along with the clowns, had cheered them up. =)

Here are some pics from the event, credit goes to all CP comrades. I'm just not sure whose camera is which! ;P

The comrades.

The toys. 

We got sponsors from Celcom, Maxis, and Astro too. Tahniah kepada semua AJK-AJK Toys4Kidz yg bertungkus lumus mengumpulkan permainan ini semua. Syabbas betteih! Saya bukan AJK. Saya ahli kekecik je. ;P

Here's our hilarious emcee, Mr.Andy and the buffday boy, De Mekdi. Boy did they spam the mic!

A portion of the audience. Tekun je mendengar bebelan kat depan.

Miss TyRaz getting busy. One of the usher of the day.

Here's Mr.President, JC. Followed him on twitter long ago, and for that 'long ago', i was reckoning him as a malignant person. But in reality, a kind-hearted man. But still, not for the fain=hearted. ;P

Cian adik ni. Kekecik dah kena masuk banyak wires.

Mr. Andy beramah mesra dengan one of the kids. Tak semua ni pesakit tau. Kids yg melawat je pun boleh join.

Yang bertudung merah tu saje enterprem.

The Clown! =D

Stella's charm cheering the kids up!

Giving out the toys to the kids, dalam masa yg sama bertanya khabar penjaga dia jugak.

With Akak mas_IFP & itseddyall. Abaikan ekspresi buruk si tudung merah.

With kamy @ camille. ;)

The ones from my camera are only the last two. Yang lain tu plagiarism. Hehe

I'm sorry i'm not so good in describing how the day went. This post alone is lengthy enough for me. hehe.. But i know someone who does! Here, you can read about the Toys4Kidz event on _uculer's blog: http://uculer.blogspot.com/2012/01/hari-kejadian-toyz4kids.html. Enjoy! =8)

.patriotisme.

Assalamualaikum and good evening peeps! :)

This post may be a Wordless Wednesday, but i have much to say instead. hihih.

Mama lah yang semangat ni. Beli awal-awal lagi dia. Ada big flags but we don't know an appropriate spot to hang em. Thus the mini ones.

Ada 1 Malaysia sekali kat situ. I don't know wether orang lalu lalang yang toleh towards our house, in awe dengan patriotisme kitorang or wondering if this is markas baru Najib 1 Malaysia kwsn Raub.

-______-"

Siapa saja yang lalu confirm tgk. termasuklah si kancil. mesti diorang nak jugak. hehe

Dapatkan di kedai berdekatan sekarang juga!

.the wall.

Assalamualaikum and good day, peeps.

I was updating my facebook status with;

"The wall is building up higher and higher. If I don't start the climb now, it may be extra difficult for me to do so later. "

It then reminds me of how Dr. Zuryati (an excellent dentist from HUSM) motivated me when i was a little swamped with my Professional 2 exams.

She mentioned during her years as a dental sciences student in a foreign country, she once resided in an apartment opposite a construction site. In her window view, there was a man whose work is as hard labourer, cementing bricks to make the new building.

Everyday, she watched that man working in whatever condition the weather gave him, until the building is done. It was the same routine. Bricking walls, that man was, and he did it excellently although the weather was harsh on him. Never once that man was absent from his duty until the building was completed. So whenever she felt 'overwhelmed' with hardship, she'll always say,

"If that man can brick that wall, i can study until i meet my goal."

Now, that man is outside my window. ( in a non-hallucination kind of way. ;P )

Never give up, peeps. :)

.love diaries.

Assalamualaikum and good day. :)

Today i kick-start my day with a cuppa coffee and various plans on the things that i need to do during office hours. Simply because all of them involve people that works in the office. Such as;

My CFCS patient card that needs signature (To be submitted to the sister in the KKKK office. However, to submit it, i must first fill in my patient's family members' names and IC numbers. This can be done by calling my patient and asking him all the info),

My dental appointment (To be set with the nurse in the Klinik Pakar Gigi HUSM, according to Dr. Abdullah),

My car sticker form (To be submitted to the USMKK HEP dept. To be able to do this, i must have the photocopied car insurance sheet and grant that my father has with him. Shouldn't be a problem, since baba work near my campus and i can pick them up from him during lunch hour.)

Send out presents to my friends via pos laju (To be posted at the mini post office in campus).

Since IDA (the InterDisciplinary Activities, mainly lectures) starts early in the morning, i planned to get done with the things i mentioned during inter-lectures break and some in the afternoon.

As usual, my IDA session are filled with either

me, intensely absorbed into the lecture topic and jotting down (very rare situation)

me, reading fiction (not uncommon), or

me, talking in 20-25 desible intensity of voice with friends, a.k.a borak kosong (common), or

me, sleeping (surprisingly common. eheh).

So at 8.30am sharp, (i was on time), i started reading Madeline Wickham's The Wedding Girl. At 8.55am, there was an announcement, morning lecture was canceled. Chance to call my cfcs patient and straight to the KKKK Dept, yet i was still reading. Until 9.30am, i got to chapter 8 and stopped since Prof Nik Zainal, our phase coordinator, came in, warning us on the bad IDA attendance. He was saying all sorts of things like, we must always come to the session, 100% attendance expected this week onwards, and do not sign for your friends because apparently the academic office have some kind of forensic officer that can detect the fake signature, even the slightest bent.

Now i don't have the authority to say that it's not true, but saying out those things may not really be effective. I mean, it may be, if the implementation was carried out word by word. Me as the IDA 'runner', have been warned by the academic office the same thing since day 1. However, a different news was circulating, that seniors said IDA consist of no importance when it comes to our academic assessment. They themselves have been 'playing truant?' and faced no consequences. NO action at all. So why bother? In the end, the attendance are just based on some student's eagerness to learn and willingness to wake up in the early morning and fill in their attendance, not out of worry that they are going to be taken disciplinary action upon. So yeah, after the 'warning', most students were just, 'yeah whatever' or giggle cynically. Aih.. I just hope that if the academic office say so, they do so, so that it won't be an insult to the ones who really came every IDA morning. (sadly, not me. aih..i have also been absent a few times). Some lecturers confessed their curiosity to us wether we find the IDA helpful? Although with that much absentee i don't dare to say that it's not, since there are quite a number of 'enjoyable' lectures that give us info out of our usual academic scope, like the medico-legal lectures, disasters and forensic (when else are we going to have a 'disaster' lecture if not during IDA? and yes, 'Natural Disaster' was a lecture title). So the IDA remains, and absentee remains in their room. May Prof. Nik Zainal's words may alter the numbers.

Second lecture's break - i ended up playing Fruit Ninja on Faiz's iPod until the battery depleted. So the inter-lectures break were non-productive for me.

Done with the lectures, Ruby, Sue and I went for our gastroround. As usual, girls + lunch break + no evening class + air conditioned cafe = talk and talk and talk. Feeling full, I went back to my room, determined to call baba and get the car insurance thing, also to call my patient and submit the CFCS card today, when i saw my friends' unwrapped present (ah, forgot to wrap em and post em!).

The present i got them are somewhat a love diary. Although the diaries are already very pretty, i decided to add something to make them more special since i'm giving them to my best friends. I just add some quick notes to a few dates.

Just a simple hello.

a reminder of my buffday is a must. hehe

So these are what i've been doing till it's 15 minutes past 5 and along with it destroyed all hope to run errands concerning the mentioned offices above. Hope you guys like it when it reach your doorstep, sunshine(s). ;)

p/s: about the dental appointment, i totally forgot all about it. uhu.

.kamon kamon.

Assalamualaikum & good day, peeps. :)

I just wanted to ramble a short piece today,

telling you that,

'If only..' is simply not applicable to me anymore.

Everything i need is already within my reach right now.

Sounds so grand, isn't it? Chett..

But it's only very true.

All i have to do now is just want something, and straight to working my ass off for it.

Now that sounds more like it. Heh.

.The day that went away.

Assalamualaikum and good day! :)

Today is one of the few days that i woke up early after Subuh prayer. Yay for me. After looking through (or maybe just looking at, i'm not sure, based on my state of mind at that time) the Guyton Physiology and Kumar Med book, i went to the Sunday market to buy some staple food for the week, and get home and the rest was ordinary (and by ordinary i mean CSI, Leverage, House, a few AFCs', napping, blog-surfing, gardening, garage work, blahblah).

And tonight, as you may have noticed, i tried to change my blog skin. I like the colour of the current one. However i can't make the bloglist to appear at its supposed place like it used to be. But whatever, i hardly look at them anyway, since wordpress has no (or my free version don't have it) the blog update, i often go to other fella's blogger blog to see who's updating so i can read the latest. But i'm still not satisfied with it. Maybe i'll pick a time to re-do them. Tengoklah macam mana nanti. (seriously gaya orang pemalas dah sekarang ni).

Btw, i think i'm being a jerk this week. Aih..

I have GOT to find a way to stop this. Before all hell breaks loose, i better be nice to people.

.My Checklist Updates.

Assalamualaikum and a very good day to you! :)

Remember these?

NOte-to-SeLf 4 pOsTExaM:

1. Work at Chek Sing.

2. Learn japanese seriously before fly in May.

3. Finish up the cross stitches.

4. Colour bedroom furnitures in WHITE.

5. Paint bathroom stripey purple or any other warna that makes sense.

6. Build rack for store room.

7. Make a rock-paper-scissors-lizard-Spock t-shirt.

8. Go along with sister Yati’s plan lah.

As you can see, there are a few crossed ones. Well actually, i didn't get the work at Chek Sing. Chek Sing is a botanical shop which sell plants for gardens. Apparently the job offer was taken back as he said he's going to do more of landscape jobs this season, (i don't know what 'seasons' does he go by) and will need more manpower (as in, MAN power). So a petite like me who's generally only useful for looking after the kedai and watering plants and transfering them from black bag to the pots isn't really necessary at this time of the 'season'. Kecewa. Ok, keep calm and moving on..

As for the Japanese language, i am now learning by heart. But i still can't figure much when i try visiting Japanese websites to train my efficiency in that language. It's okay (consoling myself), berakit-rakit ke hulu..plus, Ady and Ena will be there to translate for me. muehehehe....

And the storeroom, i didn't exactly build a new one, merely just modify the use of the old bookshelf to suit it's use in the store room as a tool rack.

Btw, i have white furnitures now! Yeay Yeay Yeay! :D

Here are some pics of us trying to D-I-Y.

the bro kurang membantu. ceh.

She hold the brush when I hold the camera. ;P

Applying undercoat.

Pakdin yang begitu banyak berusaha, esp masa baba datang checking us out. Makin putih dia lepas cat perabot tu. ;P

[caption id="attachment_413" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="Before it was transformed. I kinda miss the old woody look. "][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_414" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="me being plumpy and bossy and all.."][/caption]

After all the demanding and crazy-hot madness under scorching sun, i don't think the troops will come back to give a hand when i cry out help the next time. haha.. ;P

Guess i'll be painting my bathroom purple by myself. (^^,)"

.i am the master of my fate.

Sure, there are qada n qadar. But God must have given you cognitive function for a reason, doesn't He? Work for it, sunshine. Don't ever give up. Miracle happens to the lucky ones. And only the ones who put effort are lucky.

.Invictus.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

.one time.

Cute. I thought it was a girl singing, despite the lyrics. Turn out to be the 15 year old Justin! With the wordings, i think he's utterly cute. :)

Plus i'm in a really good mood today. So every songs that come into my ear has really tune up in me. Be it classical to RnB.

Have got nothing to say actually. Just that i am in love. :)

and by the way,

I can reach my dream too.

.sunshine and rainbow.

"Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise."

Benjamin Franklin

I was early to bed last night and manage to wake up early today.

It seems like a good day, don't you think? :D

.and why do i have to learn french?

because i have to start with the end in mind. (thus the initial dot in every title 'stead of just at the end) And since the journey to the end has something to do with it, i think i should. Once i'm done with Japanese. and Arabic. and every other thing that occupies me still.

okay, that, and,

i don't know why do i find myself hard to apply things that i learnt. If that's still not obvious in my studies, (barf) try life. i knew long before, that if i dont take myself seriously, no one would.. well, except the ones that are biologically programmed to do so, a.k.a mama and baba and maybe a few significant others that gripped the meaning of loyalty by heart.

and yet, i relied. on what, who, it doesn't matter. but i did that, and it brought me to being too patient with myself, and can't seem to gain. i suppose didn't take myself seriously as someone who can. the path has to be paved before me. thus i seems to forgot to clear the bushes on my own. in time, i eventually found myself to be some sorta just a filler (altough it is a self-thought and maybe just paranoia). and that is unacceptable in my dictionary of contemporary life language. So, in mind of wanting to be a hey-let's-take-her-and-polish 'stead of an owh-okay-just-take-her, i am to get up and beat it.

Putting on a mask of bravely-ready-to-undertake-em-all.

Tunggu..(dlm nada pengacara Melodi tv3) hehe.

.until proven otherwise.

Assalamualaikum and good day.

It's the 3 rd day of RAYA people! Have you visit your family & friends' houses yet? And more importantly, have you asked for enough forgiveness this year? I haven't. Wuwu~ (-.-")

So far my raya has been okay. Although Tok Ayah has been a little sick lately. He's slimming down to someone quite unrecognisable as him. He was a sturdy man, recruiting his grandchildren for hari raya mass labour work. But now he looked so skinny, having chills and rigors, shaking on his bed. As everything is of constitutional symptoms and diarrhoea, i'm hoping it's just gastroentritis. We went to the hospital, and the doctor commented nothing on the pandemic disease. 'Phewh', but not quite. He is still having fever. He once said, "lepah cucu bongsu ni, takdok doh la.." Maksu is bearing her first child, barely in the first month of gestation. Saya harap mulut Tok Ayah tak masin.

[caption id="attachment_268" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="Tok Ayah on pagi raya. He claimed to be at his best of health that morning, since Ramadhan. Until he fell sick (again) that evening and brought to Hospital Pasir Mas A&E by midnight."][/caption]

As for everything else, raya is fine. Much hilarity with people all around me in the mood for celebration. I love it when people have so much positive energy around me. I think it somehow can topup mine a little since i am lack of it nowadays.

And,

I hate it when it come down to this. But as i am typing alone in my room, and the negativity is so overwhelmingly underwhelming, i am easily drifted away from any presence of happiness, and start to think of myself as the 21 year old walking with the worst of fate on earth - which of course, not. God has given me so much for me to be grateful for. Again, it's just my melancholy.

And to have this 'syndrome', and be in a relationship, is fatal. I tend to drag down lingering energy that i feel nearest to me. Poor him. I am grateful that my BFFs understand this concept completely, and survive it with me and standing still whenever the emotional chaos come into scene and me struggle in trying to figure it out. Kadang-kadang rasa macam doa tak sampai. And looking back into my life, it's not hard to figure out why. (-.-")

I once liked to think of myself as:

Wan Iliana = positive and honest.

But now, i don't think i does seem so anymore. Nak positif susah. Nak jujur, lagi susah, sebab sepatutnya yang negatif tak patut dibawa keluar. Have to find a new recipe for life to perk it up.

There's a line in medicine, which is very useful for a diagnosis. "Until proven otherwise." I am trying to get hold of this phrase. Because everytime i sense sadness in me, my mind worked its the way to previous let-downs and past crushed hopes, rubbing salts to the chronic wounds. And in life, if you search for someone's faults to prove someone's wrong, of course she will be, and that applies to you too. So i'll try to prove otherwise. Whenever i think I am unhappy, any evidence on that, miss? Can you fix it? Kalau nak ber-melankoli saja memanjang, abeh le. Manja ah kamu. Aren't you one happy girl once? So, until i am proven otherwise.

p/s: Back in matriculation day, Didi Aiman gave me a book as a birthday present. A book on "How to be Happy". I thought, okay, lame, but read it anyway. ;P Thinking of it now, made me grin. I wonder what was he thinking at that time? Did he sense something in me that made him trying to prepare for near future, in case my emotional chaos take place?

Haha who am i trying to kid. Of course he just bought it because he knows i like to read. That's all.

p/s/s: Dear anyone, sorry, kalau saya dah buat kamu susah hati.

.what goes 'round comes 'round.

I take myself, as still learning to know how to take care of my heart. And now that i witnessed something that i predicted some while ago, i believe i achieved some desirable point in that. The first time it happened, i knew it gonna change me for good. I even made a statement to the former subject that that, has leave some sorta 'cicatrix' in me and before it's bygoned as a mere memory, i make sure i thanked properly, for making me learn and move forward. This time it might not be entirely the same, yet as i've learnt and took action, i triumphed (err..that's sorta exaggerated term) ;P.

What goes 'round comes 'round.



And oh, Happy Merdeka Day! There's more to it than just a holiday. :)(But as for me, tennis time tomorrow mownin.) ;P

.it's the climb,baby.

1st week of repro. Baru 1st week, and i'm mashed. Juggling between recent notes, prev semester's, elective-group-funds stuffs, studygroup, and japanese classes..htd stuffs.. no wonder i'm no VIP. If i put myself in any of the hicom's shoes, lagi2 the ones with multiposts, i don't think i can handle it well. *sigh*

*Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high


Has been a while since i last step into the tennis court. Missing it much. Feel a slight guilt towards Abg. Mie n the seniors generous with their tennis skills before. Not playing means not practicing, means i might have forgot the techniques they have spent time teaching me before. Means it's gonna be quite long while for me to get better at the game, and might put everyones' previous effort to waste. Although it's the real deal, me having japanese classes in the evening, and when we're supposedly free of the class, something else equally important came up, i still feel embarassed explaining it to Sahrul last nite, coz i think i look like giving endless excuses for not turning up to practice. My fault maybe, not organizing well of my time. Apelah~


*There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,


I miss the debate club too. The late-nite discussions, mind-probing tongue-lashing sessions, debate matches with other uni.. I was supposed to be in a match in Dungun on 25th June, but i've mistaken the date with 25th of July (as on the actual date we're still in our sem-break so i thought..), i was cancelled, or more to 'cancelled myself' from the debating team for the match. Bodo betul. Salah tarikh pulak, dah terlepas.
When they (debate team) were having meeting pulak, i wasn't informed coz i accidentally left my hp at home. Bodo jugak sikit coz asyik lupa barang2 sendiri. Ggaaaa~!!


*I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong.


And now it seems like things arent exactly in their place yet.
My mind is sometimes blank, sometimes like this: ->


I sometimes don't know what am i thinking about at times. Airheaded. In the pbl, i explained the mestrual cycle graphs like crap. Tu lah ingat dah hafal, tp tertido pula semasa revision. 14th day=menstruation. What the~ lah.. Budak yang belum SPM pun tau kot..


*The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking


...&*^&&%%*...
.......(T.T).........

Hey hey wake up! Asyek merungut aje. Miserable people make other people miserable tawu!! All's gonna be for the better! When are you gonna learn that haa?
Don't worry Iliana, you'll be fine. Keep moving forward.

So sing it,
LOUD!!!!

MILEY CYRUS - the CLIMB.
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong.



You are soooo not the worst case, budak.

.keep on cookin.

Yeap. Literally.

"There is nothing that you succeed in that you didn't work on everyday."

-Will Smith.

So, keep on cooking Iliana! Till you get the asam pedas right. ;P