.tumbled.

Assalamulaikum and good evening peeps. :)

Cuma nak bagitahu di sini.

Saya tiba-tiba je ada tumblr.

OK bye.

.First.YouTube.Video.Ever.

Assalamualaikum & good evening y'all.

Just want to document it here that today i've posted my first YouTube video. Hemo hemo hemo. :D

I was on YouTube searching for my favourite Korean drama ost mtv, but none that i've found were of satisfactory image/ sounds. Those with quality audio/video, were mostly lack subtitles or translations. So it's only natural for me to make one on my own, right? I have that much time to kill anyway. ;P Here's how it came out to be:

Enjoy! :)

.lechuu.

Assalamualaikum and g'day all. :)

Today i was trying new shawl bought from Awra Scarflets. When..

mama: along paka gak lechu etep..surey jah. (along cuba lah pakai gincu sikit. suram je muka)

me: dok reti. (tak pandai)

mama: owk aloh. (hmmph!)

me: ho lah, warno gapo hok song? pink ko? (ok lah..warna apa yang sesuai? pink?)

*putting on orange lipstick*

me: oreng ok? (warna oren ok x?)

mama: hmm..*grin*

(-.-") belechuu doh la kawe..

Show Me Ur Style!

Assalamualaikum and good day, peeps! :)

Haha okay hari tu kata nak tulis pasal sinopsis novel dalam cabaran c50 kan. Tapi belum buat kerana masih malas nak imbas balik tentang plot novel tu.

So today it's not about a book. It's about me participating in a contest in facebook. Hahah.

It's a 'style' contest, in which participants shall upload a picture of them, in what they think as their most awesomest style, and then the picture with the most 'likes' will win. In order for people to like the picture, they must first like the profile page of the shop.

This kind of contest is quite common among new shops in facebook. By organizing such contest, a shop will gain publicity in a jiff because their shop name will be published everywhere for every 'likes' they get, not to mention quite a number of members too, because people who entered the contest will have to want their friends and families to like the page in order to make them vote.

So umm......

I hereby would like to promote my picture! I'm doing this just for fun, and also for the prizes! ;p

This contest is organised by a women's apparel shop.

For ladies, you can add up some great fashion choices to your shopping list by liking the page.

For guys who would also like to vote, no worries. You can also like the page, see wether you like my style, and vote for me! Yet you may not want to shop in a women's clothing shop, right? So what you can do is, you can always unlike the page after the contest is over. ;) Simple, right? So here is how you can vote for me:

Visit this facebook page: M2M Collection (click here)

Like the M2M Collection page first.

In the page's photos there's an album named "Show Me Ur Style Contest".

In the album, you may find my picture with the name Iliana Sulaiman.

If i'm not mistaken my pic is in the 3rd line in the album.

I'm contestant No.10.

Okay so that's it. Vote me y'all. Thank you! :)

.My Checklist Updates.

Assalamualaikum and a very good day to you! :)

Remember these?

NOte-to-SeLf 4 pOsTExaM:

1. Work at Chek Sing.

2. Learn japanese seriously before fly in May.

3. Finish up the cross stitches.

4. Colour bedroom furnitures in WHITE.

5. Paint bathroom stripey purple or any other warna that makes sense.

6. Build rack for store room.

7. Make a rock-paper-scissors-lizard-Spock t-shirt.

8. Go along with sister Yati’s plan lah.

As you can see, there are a few crossed ones. Well actually, i didn't get the work at Chek Sing. Chek Sing is a botanical shop which sell plants for gardens. Apparently the job offer was taken back as he said he's going to do more of landscape jobs this season, (i don't know what 'seasons' does he go by) and will need more manpower (as in, MAN power). So a petite like me who's generally only useful for looking after the kedai and watering plants and transfering them from black bag to the pots isn't really necessary at this time of the 'season'. Kecewa. Ok, keep calm and moving on..

As for the Japanese language, i am now learning by heart. But i still can't figure much when i try visiting Japanese websites to train my efficiency in that language. It's okay (consoling myself), berakit-rakit ke hulu..plus, Ady and Ena will be there to translate for me. muehehehe....

And the storeroom, i didn't exactly build a new one, merely just modify the use of the old bookshelf to suit it's use in the store room as a tool rack.

Btw, i have white furnitures now! Yeay Yeay Yeay! :D

Here are some pics of us trying to D-I-Y.

the bro kurang membantu. ceh.

She hold the brush when I hold the camera. ;P

Applying undercoat.

Pakdin yang begitu banyak berusaha, esp masa baba datang checking us out. Makin putih dia lepas cat perabot tu. ;P

[caption id="attachment_413" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="Before it was transformed. I kinda miss the old woody look. "][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_414" align="aligncenter" width="480" caption="me being plumpy and bossy and all.."][/caption]

After all the demanding and crazy-hot madness under scorching sun, i don't think the troops will come back to give a hand when i cry out help the next time. haha.. ;P

Guess i'll be painting my bathroom purple by myself. (^^,)"

.one time.

Cute. I thought it was a girl singing, despite the lyrics. Turn out to be the 15 year old Justin! With the wordings, i think he's utterly cute. :)

Plus i'm in a really good mood today. So every songs that come into my ear has really tune up in me. Be it classical to RnB.

Have got nothing to say actually. Just that i am in love. :)

and by the way,

I can reach my dream too.

It's post-war. It's suppose to be different.

It was time of the year again.

The boy has the dream.

His treasure was at the base of the pyramid.

The boy shall go in pursuit of his dreams.

And the girl shall wait.

She is the woman of the desert.

The women of the desert shall always wait for their men.

The strong women of the desert.

Their men are to wander as free as the winds that shape the dunes.

The dunes are altered by the wind, but the desert never change.

But sometimes, desert takes the men away, they don’t always return.

So the girl may cry.

She is the woman of the desert.

But above all, she is a woman.

Her treasure is him.

Iliana. 0020.

.crush alert.

Err..think i got just a tiny little..(okay, HUGE) crush on Mr. Sani Sayuthi (the next John Tharakan??) Master of Surgery (Neurosurgery) YuEshEm.

He.

Is.

a.

Neurosurgeon.

NEUROSURGEON!!!

(L.O.C. for 0.2 second)

Oh why oh why is it his last class...?

p/s: hehe sorry babyy, of course u know better. ;P

.until proven otherwise.

Assalamualaikum and good day.

It's the 3 rd day of RAYA people! Have you visit your family & friends' houses yet? And more importantly, have you asked for enough forgiveness this year? I haven't. Wuwu~ (-.-")

So far my raya has been okay. Although Tok Ayah has been a little sick lately. He's slimming down to someone quite unrecognisable as him. He was a sturdy man, recruiting his grandchildren for hari raya mass labour work. But now he looked so skinny, having chills and rigors, shaking on his bed. As everything is of constitutional symptoms and diarrhoea, i'm hoping it's just gastroentritis. We went to the hospital, and the doctor commented nothing on the pandemic disease. 'Phewh', but not quite. He is still having fever. He once said, "lepah cucu bongsu ni, takdok doh la.." Maksu is bearing her first child, barely in the first month of gestation. Saya harap mulut Tok Ayah tak masin.

[caption id="attachment_268" align="aligncenter" width="479" caption="Tok Ayah on pagi raya. He claimed to be at his best of health that morning, since Ramadhan. Until he fell sick (again) that evening and brought to Hospital Pasir Mas A&E by midnight."][/caption]

As for everything else, raya is fine. Much hilarity with people all around me in the mood for celebration. I love it when people have so much positive energy around me. I think it somehow can topup mine a little since i am lack of it nowadays.

And,

I hate it when it come down to this. But as i am typing alone in my room, and the negativity is so overwhelmingly underwhelming, i am easily drifted away from any presence of happiness, and start to think of myself as the 21 year old walking with the worst of fate on earth - which of course, not. God has given me so much for me to be grateful for. Again, it's just my melancholy.

And to have this 'syndrome', and be in a relationship, is fatal. I tend to drag down lingering energy that i feel nearest to me. Poor him. I am grateful that my BFFs understand this concept completely, and survive it with me and standing still whenever the emotional chaos come into scene and me struggle in trying to figure it out. Kadang-kadang rasa macam doa tak sampai. And looking back into my life, it's not hard to figure out why. (-.-")

I once liked to think of myself as:

Wan Iliana = positive and honest.

But now, i don't think i does seem so anymore. Nak positif susah. Nak jujur, lagi susah, sebab sepatutnya yang negatif tak patut dibawa keluar. Have to find a new recipe for life to perk it up.

There's a line in medicine, which is very useful for a diagnosis. "Until proven otherwise." I am trying to get hold of this phrase. Because everytime i sense sadness in me, my mind worked its the way to previous let-downs and past crushed hopes, rubbing salts to the chronic wounds. And in life, if you search for someone's faults to prove someone's wrong, of course she will be, and that applies to you too. So i'll try to prove otherwise. Whenever i think I am unhappy, any evidence on that, miss? Can you fix it? Kalau nak ber-melankoli saja memanjang, abeh le. Manja ah kamu. Aren't you one happy girl once? So, until i am proven otherwise.

p/s: Back in matriculation day, Didi Aiman gave me a book as a birthday present. A book on "How to be Happy". I thought, okay, lame, but read it anyway. ;P Thinking of it now, made me grin. I wonder what was he thinking at that time? Did he sense something in me that made him trying to prepare for near future, in case my emotional chaos take place?

Haha who am i trying to kid. Of course he just bought it because he knows i like to read. That's all.

p/s/s: Dear anyone, sorry, kalau saya dah buat kamu susah hati.

It’s like,

when you’re excited about a girl, and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And at other times, you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. And all you always want, is to feel happy for them because you know, that if you do, then it means that you are happy, too.

Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

.look me in the eye.

I was blog hopping my fellas' blogs when i stumbled upon a sweet hadith in a friend-of-a-friend's page, ms. aimi. It quotes:

"Sesungguhnya apabila suami menatap isterinya dan isterinya membalas pandang dengan cinta kasih, maka Allah menatap mereka dengan pandangan kasih sayang dan jika suami membelai tangan isterinya, maka dosa mereka jatuh berguguran di sela-sela jari mereka."

-Diriwayatkan oleh Maisarah dari Said Al-Khudri

Seems that there's more to love than mere affection of two hearts, eyh?

Psst: I hope I can have this printed on my wedding cards (^-^).

.spring.

In my heart. :)



Carnations, dandelions, tulips and roses.

Blooming blithesomely in the garden of my heart.

Oh there’s also cherry blossoms,

Effloresce in its part.

I just love how they blow in the wind

As they bespeak the joy that I am feeling.



…



I am home.

I am a daughter.

I am a sister. The eldest sister.



I am a girl.

I am a pixie.

We have our laughs.

Our pixiesh pranks.



I donned the summer dress.

Despite the spring.

It felt like winter. Vaguely winter.

My ivory jacket on.



We went up the hill.

We twirled on the swings.

We rode the cyclone, our breathings hurricaned. (even its fo kids, foheavenssake)

We superman-ed the machine, it typhooned.

We hiked up high, and dropped in a jiffy.

Our beats almost stopped. (in my case it did)

I screamed my tears out. (I thought I wasn’t a crybaby till then)



We burnt our red notes.

We got the tokens.

We threw the balls.

We got only the mini dolls.

Ahh..the red notes.. (T.T)



Massive burgers. (just in the menu picta they were big)

Fried ice cream.

Corn in cup.

Hot dogs.

Lollipops. Smiles.



We looked around.

We snapped.



We posed.

We snapped.



We smile.

We snapped.



We laugh.

We snapped.



I see them laugh.

I snapped.

Ahh..my family. :)



…





Hot chocolate, mocha.

Confused.



Big Apple, Dunkin Donuts.

Confused.



Sunflower, carnations.

Confused.



The bumper car, the go kart.

Confused.



Spring in London, summer in France.

Confused.



Lavender, lilac.

Confused.



White, Ivory.

Confused.



See with my ears, listen with my eyes.

Confused.



Take a break, go beyond.

Confused.



Morning person, all-nighter.

Confused.



Take it all in, let it all out.

Confused.



He loves me, he loves me not.

Confused...not. ;)



Never to run again.

Not another lap. ;p

I am..enamored.



…



Melati, mawar, kenanga, orkid…

Mekar kalian sampai kapan pun ya.

[caption id="attachment_97" align="aligncenter" width="460" caption="saje letak. comel pic ni.. :P"][/caption]

.apa khabar agaknya.

Apa khabar agaknya di sini. Ows..lupa..sudah lama x update..jadi tak ada apa-apa.. ;P

Sorry..bangat..

It's not that i dont want to update, (if you've the update of my blog you might notice, there was one titled 'a nobody' that i posted, like, 2 weeks ago. However then i rethink and decided it's too personal and too deep into the cerebra of mine, thus the deletion from page) it's just that there wasnt much going on, and i was in pre-depression (self-diagnosed, so more like mengada-ngada punya paranoia of not doing well in everything), i figured if i post, they'll be like, just pure whinings and babblings and complains for every entries. (it was said that complains, babbles and such may reduce our productivity by 30%) haha

So i thought maybe i could just save u guys from the boring babbles of mine in your exam month, and save myself from being the outbreaker of the negative aura~ hehe.

To make it up, i'll TRY to be more of a constant blogger AFTER the selanjar 2 (like the final for 2nd year) exam. To dearies who's not in my kuliah, my course has just have our 1st paper today, (i) the OSCE (on spot clinical examination) which i can say...... nothing about. ;P There will be 3 more papers, (ii) the SEQ (short essay Q) (iii) the OSCE clinical (for physical examination) and the (iv) the MCQ (you know what). And all will end on 28th of May. Oh cepat-cepat lah..

And so..what had been in the prev 2 months? Nada.. Well, there were a few things, but i'm not that keen on recalling and telling, for the time being. Hehehehe.. I'll just share more AFTER exam yah? Thanks for reading fellas!

C ya soon! :)

Btw: he called a little more often now. I am a happy bunny. v(^^)v